10.06.2008

generosity

I'm a bit late, but I'd still like to do NaBloWriMo. Aka National Blog Writing Month. The idea is that I'll post every day this month? Think I can do it? I'm not sure either. I'll be pleased if I hit every other day. The problem won't be post topics, but rather it will be getting me to sit down and write them.
This post I've had in my head for a LONG time. Finally today during seminar I started writing it (can you tell I wasn't too into the seminar topic?).

The subject of generosity has been on my mind for quite some time. Not just generosity of the monetary sort, but also of the personal sort.
One can be generous by donating money. Something very important in meetings if the meeting intends to pay rent and have literature for new comers. Generosity of time in meetings is also important. I've often heard in meetings that the easiest way to be of service is to simply show up to meetings. But, ideally, meetings need more than this to stay healthy and function well. A healthy meeting also ideally has a GR (group representative) who generously gives of their time by attending area meetings and making sure info from WSO (World Service Office) gets to the meeting.
This is all well and good, but what does this have to do with my life? How do I practice these principles in all my affairs?

I've learned how to be generous in terms of the program, but how do I practice this in other areas of my life? Part of the answer for me is learning to trust my Higher Power and to know my boundaries.

Back story: Why did I even think of this topic? Before moving, I decided to throw myself a going away party. What struck me was how generous my wonderful friends were, new and old. I was struck also by the various types of generosity that were presented to me. Some friends offered to help me finish making food. One offered to do all the grilling. Some gave me gifts. But the best gifts I received was that they all showed up. I was struck by how generous my friends were with their time and more importantly themselves.
Through this I realized how ungenerous I can be on many different levels.
On one level, this is ok. I'm getting very good at taking care of myself. I make sure I am financially taken care of. I try my best to make sure I have the time to do the things I need to do (laundry, food, keeping my abode livable). But this leads me towards a path of isolation because I focus so much on making sure I am taken care of that I let my friendships falter. I am not very generous with my time with my friends. At least not to the level I would like to be.
While I'm not quite sure where I would like this post to end, it does leave me with much to think about in terms of what I really do need to do to take care of myself mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. Perhaps I have been spending so much time on just a few of these that others have fallen sadly by the wayside. As an old friend would say, I can pray about this.

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