Sometimes you feel like a nut...

Between two meetings today, and an interesting afternoon, I've had an interesting day overall.
I "started" my day with a noon, and then called someone with whom I have not been in contact in a while. She's interested to start coming to Al-Anon. And with that I found myself slipping back into an old habit, which I doubt I'd broken, but that I hadn't really realized I was still doing until today.
An old habit I have is to rearrange myself for the alcoholic (really, for almost anyone) if they even mention doing something together. And I found myself doing that today. This old friend suggested getting together at some point today, but had to call me back about it. I found myself doing all sorts of crazy stuff because of my indecision then. This includes finally deciding to go home for lunch, getting on the bus, changing my mind two stops later, getting off the bus to walk back to the metro so I could metro/bus to get pupusas, going all the way down into the metro, and changing my mind, realizing how insane I was begin, and going all the way back up to ground level to check the bus home so I could eat lunch. It was crazy. But tonights meeting really bought into focus how much I'll bend over backwards to "spend time" with someone. Even if there are no defininte plans, just a suggestion. Thankfully today I can laugh about this and not be resentful at my friend for "not following through" (on plans we hadn't even made).
Right now, in this moment, I feel good. Good enough to work more on my fourth step :)