frustration

I'm feeling frustration tonight. I expressed displeasure over something to a new friend, of course not thinking about the fact that said new friend isn't like my old friends. New Friend is a wonderful person. I enjoy her company, I like being around her. But I just felt dismissed when I expressed my displeasure over a certain topic. It wasn't that she wasn't listening. It wasn't that she was trying to be mean or hurtful. But so have someone tell me that I have no reason to be displeased over something when I am feels really crappy, especially now that I know I have a choice in making up my own mind. My old friends probably would have reached the same conclusion as new friend, but I would have felt heard. That they understood that while they disagreed with my thoughts, that they are still my thoughts and feelings and that I have the right to feel them.

It's left me feeling crappy and sad and missing my old friends. I should call some of them tomorrow.