I can feel excluded very easily. If two of my friends are hanging out together and I'm not invited, I start wondering what it is about me that they don't like. If two coworkers go and do something together, I wonder if they don't like me. I'm not quite sure where this comes from, or why it bothers me so much, but it does and has for quite some time. While I understand that the world doesn't revolve around me, I'm always wondering why I'm not included in things.
I'm an introvert. Who does a very good job of discluding myself from many things. I'm always busy. I never feel good. Why would anyone want to hang out with me? I have nothing to offer.
Add in not feeling well today, probably PMSing a bit, and just general malaise, and I'm sure we all can see where I'm coming from. A very illogical place.
I have friends. I know that.
I have friends who love me. I know that too.
But somewhere in here, my brain just doesn't connect the two. Especially sitting home on a Saturday night.
Even if I am feeling crummy and probably should stay home and go to bed early (even though I took a 4 hour nap today).