HOW?

HOW?
Honest
Open
Willing

I think I've been pretty honest, at least to my capicity with individuals. I think I've been honest with how I feel, what I'm going through, what I'm trying to do. I also realize I don't have to tell everyone everything, so I think it's been appropriate honesty.

Open I think ties in with honesty for me. If I'm honest, then I'm open. I share how I'm feeling, what I'm thinking, what I'm going through.

Willing? Thats a different story. I think I've always have problems with willingness. I don't want to try things a new way. I want to do them whatever way I've done them before and dammit, it will work this time. And thats where I think I'm running into problems right now. I do think there is a smidge of willingness in me, else I wouldn't still be going to meetings, calling my sponsor, working on my fifth step, trying some small new things. But I'm still feeling miserable, and I think it might have something to do with my willingness to take suggestions (hell, half the time I have problems just remembering what suggestions I get). I think my focus for the next few days will be on willingess.